68.8

Yesterday ended up eating too much again, ate raisins, blackberries, ice cream and some sandwiches but I guess it wasn't too horrible because I did my workout and went walking later.

Today I've eaten -- omelette, chicken, raisins, some salad, little bit pineapple.

Also did my workout, I hope I can keep going.

I'm still alive

69,9

So once again, I am back at this number.

Last time it took me nearly two weeks to lose 5kgs, let's see how long will it take now..

Past two months I've been eating more than ever fucking before and my body looks disgusting. I can't face the mirror.

Right now I have a week off from school. Great. School sucks, grades are better than ever before but I can't cope without food there, some days I leave home before 7AM and get home after 10PM... I don't know how the fuck am I able to find so much time to eat??! What the fuck?! Oh and I think about food all the time. I think about lunch break and after the lunch break I think about getting home and sometimes just go to the store and buy some food and dear lord I wanna quit. I have to stop.

I feel betrayed by a few former friends, I am disappointed, it makes me want to prove them it's possible to step over my own shadow and go on with my life. I wish I had never gotten along with them, it would make everything much easier.

Today I've eaten

A cup of soup

Three apples 

Planning to work out later.